I am not sure what is going on, but this last week or so I have been rapidly collecting followers despite doing absolutely nothing to encourage. If only the same thing could happen in real life.
Yes, I am in another one of those moods when I can't decide whether it's better to recede into a cave or face the world with a big smile. But when I saw all those followers building up I decided that I couldn't disappoint. Still, I couldn't think of anything inspiring, or beautiful to finish Zmaga's positive tag off.
But look, look, at all the pro-active steps I am taking!
Today I de-activated my facebook account. This action occured all of one hour ago and since then I have completed a one hour essay. Even if socially stunting, it does seem to have some very productive repercussions.
I went to the gym this lunch for the first time since August. I have been running etc, but I haven't had a proper gym workout since then and I hadn't realised how much I missed it. If I am going to become a social recluse, I can see myself becoming incredibly fit... winning all the real running races even if I have retired from the popularity races and maybe even becoming so very hench that everyone will suddenly come running back to me...
Now THAT is the sort of thought I still need to find a way to put a stop to. Melodramatic, exaggerated, consequentialist and totally depressing. I need to do things because they make me feel better, not for long term aims which may disappoint if they do not occur.
And on that note, maybe I can think of a way to continue one of my tags.
Choose one picture that shows your dreams and aspirations, or that holds a special place on your one hundred things to do before you die list
This is a bubble, and this is how I want to live, unaffected by worries about the future, and that means tomorrow, this weekend, Christmas, Valentines Day, exams in May, university application in September, two years, three years, where I will be in ten years time. No, nothing on that list can stress me out, if my only aim is to be happy now.