It's been almost a year since I started this blog. When I first set up my profile, I saw the 'books' and 'films' etc sections and just knew that I could never make such a decision. 'Interests' is also quite a broad section but I had less difficulty with this one because I angled it towards my interests on this blog. The first two were a bit twatty: love and life, but they are great at simply putting what I am interested in. The third interest is even more twatty, if that's possible, but it's also the most true.
There are plenty of things I am interested in. A lot of them are incredibly mundane (which I admitted in my fourth interest) but around the time I started this blog, I began to realise that the whole time, in some way or another, I spend my life searching for beauty.
I don't know, simply because I do not have mind-reading skills whether everyone else has this same motivation behind much of their actions as me, but I would suspect that quite a few people do. If you think about it, searching for beauty is something you do one way or another most of the time. There are the horrible aspects of it: striving for your own physical perfection, constantly desiring material goods, wishing for a different, more glamorous life.
As you may be able to tell, I thought long and hard about this topic. In some ways, that's what made me start this blog, which I use to document the positive aspects of a search for beauty. I may be writing about my personal life, shopping, films, books or general ramblings but if you look closely, you'll see that somehow it's linked to surrounding myself with beauty. I'm not sure what the hell would happen if this blog didn't have some sort of direction, so I find it helpful to have that object in my mind. Still, the fact that so far I have found it so easy to write over 300 posts about this shows that the search for beauty is infinite and everywhere.
Very nearly one whole year ago I wrote this post. How funny that one year later, every single word of that rings true. Although I didn't articulate it, the writing I put up was a documentation of the realisation about searching for beauty. A couple of months later, I wrote much more obviously about it in this post, where I mentioned that I had started an offline journal entitled 'Beauty'.
Yesterday, I was searching for some note paper to write out some electrical symbols. The first book I grabbed out was a bright orange notebook. On the front cover was written the one word 'Beauty'. On the first, page there was one paragraph explaining the title of the book. The rest of the book is empty.
Recently I have been suffering from a nasty bout of hay fever, through which the great outdoors doesn't seem so beautiful. I am lacking in energy, stressed, anxious, bored, irritable. As I sat down to write a post I thought to myself:
'What is the point? I am not seeing any beauty right now. I shouldn't be writing this blog. Right now, I am in the perfect mood to write that other depressing story which I haven't touched for over a week.'
But, of course, I was just being moody. As soon as I started typing, I remembered the bright pink flower fallen on the concrete pavement which I saw on my way home today, and how much I wished I had a camera to capture that stunning image. Now as I type this, I remember the woman I saw on the tube with her leopard print coat, black trousers with the glittery pink flare and blue eyeshadow resting her arm around the shoulder of her sunglass-clad lover. I remember the sweetness of the librarian who let me take out a book even though another one was hideously overdue. I was wrong. When I am in a mood like this, the worst thing I can do is go and carry on writing that depressing story and my mind knows this and that is why I haven't written any of it for a couple of weeks.
My mind knows that the best thing to do is not allow itself to fall into an energy-less state whenever it can. My mind knows that I should continue in my search for beauty, because when it isn't bad, it's very, very good.
Thursday, 30 April 2009
Tuesday, 28 April 2009
tired
I only want to curl up inside my bed and re-immerse myself in the many worlds of the trilogy I am racing through at a highly intellectual level. Until then, I must drink endless cups of tea to keep myself fixed in this present place. My shoulders droop and my body feels heavy. I cannot even contemplate the idea of getting a textbook out and doing the revision I had intended to. I have worked all day. I sink into the bath and slowly lift my arms, using my last reserves of energy to clean and wash and condition my long hair, and repeat. By the time I am out of the bath it is only 9PM and I am far too tired to do anything but go to bed.
Sunday, 26 April 2009
desperate
Yesterday I headed off to try to break through my shopping wall. It wasn't pleasant. Every shop I entered (and I entered a lot of shops) was filled with clothes but 97% of them fell into one of the following categories:
1) Hideous
2) Would look hideous on me
3) Hideously expensive
Undeterred, I carried the 3 remaining percent into changing room after changing room, where further faults presented themselves. Nothing was quite right. In fact, there were a couple of sweet items which I came across but I could always find some reason not to buy them - one thing I don't need is another jacket, and definitely not in such wintry colours; this top is cute, but it's also very clingy and see-thought; I can barely walk in this skirt. I am sure that this time last year any of these issues would not have stopped me.
Finally I headed into GAP, a shop which has yielded some of my most often worn, comfortable and complimented purchases. GAP loves grey and navy even more than me (I think all my GAP purchases are indeed in those two colours!) and GAP does not follow trendy cuts in their clothes, which is very helpful for me since I have a rather unfashionable body shape. Still, I tried on approximately 10000 dresses and they all made me look either like a witch, a pregnant woman or Amish. The last dress which I tried on was beautiful but too big, due to the kind yet impractical vanity sizing which GAP employs.
A shop assistant had informed me that they didn't have the dress in the size down, and when I checked there were indeed about 6 size 10s and nothing else (I am not exaggerating this time!). So, after a long day, I admitted defeat and decided to go home.
You know what happened, don't you? One last check of the rails as I left the shop uncovered a lone size 8 which I quickly tried on over my clothes. It fit. And with the 30% off voucher I had printed off earlier (get yours here, it's valid 'til 4 May) it was also wonderfully cheap!
My new dress makes me feel a little bit like a character in Desperate Housewives. I love that sort of 50s look since it's so flattering, but I couldn't resist the urge to add some un-housewivey tights to the outfit. I'm wearing it already - I told you I needed new clothes badly!
1) Hideous
2) Would look hideous on me
3) Hideously expensive
Undeterred, I carried the 3 remaining percent into changing room after changing room, where further faults presented themselves. Nothing was quite right. In fact, there were a couple of sweet items which I came across but I could always find some reason not to buy them - one thing I don't need is another jacket, and definitely not in such wintry colours; this top is cute, but it's also very clingy and see-thought; I can barely walk in this skirt. I am sure that this time last year any of these issues would not have stopped me.
Finally I headed into GAP, a shop which has yielded some of my most often worn, comfortable and complimented purchases. GAP loves grey and navy even more than me (I think all my GAP purchases are indeed in those two colours!) and GAP does not follow trendy cuts in their clothes, which is very helpful for me since I have a rather unfashionable body shape. Still, I tried on approximately 10000 dresses and they all made me look either like a witch, a pregnant woman or Amish. The last dress which I tried on was beautiful but too big, due to the kind yet impractical vanity sizing which GAP employs.
A shop assistant had informed me that they didn't have the dress in the size down, and when I checked there were indeed about 6 size 10s and nothing else (I am not exaggerating this time!). So, after a long day, I admitted defeat and decided to go home.
You know what happened, don't you? One last check of the rails as I left the shop uncovered a lone size 8 which I quickly tried on over my clothes. It fit. And with the 30% off voucher I had printed off earlier (get yours here, it's valid 'til 4 May) it was also wonderfully cheap!
My new dress makes me feel a little bit like a character in Desperate Housewives. I love that sort of 50s look since it's so flattering, but I couldn't resist the urge to add some un-housewivey tights to the outfit. I'm wearing it already - I told you I needed new clothes badly!
Friday, 24 April 2009
An Intellectual Level
Note: this post features excessive use of linking to wikipedia and imdb, as a result of way too many references to popular (and unpopular) culture which I couldn't always be bothered to explain myself. And then I didn't know whether I should italicise titles, or put them in inverted commas so I just linked them.
One of my friends and I have an on-going joke (I'll warn you, it won't make you laugh) which came from an episode of Desperate Housewives. This friend loves culture: dance, art, theatre, books all interest her. Since I like these things too, we will go see plays together or discuss our current reads, all the while marvelling at how grown-up we sound. Sometimes my friend likes to make fun of me for not knowing who Akram Khan is, and then I'll tell her she's pretentious. I can still remember the outraged spluttering I was met with when I admitted that I found Trois Couleurs: Bleu dull.
But it works both ways. My friend also likes to watch a lot of crap TV, possibly even more crap TV than I watch - and that's saying a lot. It is when we come to the topic of TV that I will defend Desperate Housewives as witty and intelligent, whilst she assigns it to the 'good shit' category of entertainment (as opposed to 'good good' i.e. Trois Couleurs: Bleu or 'shit good' i.e. something good she didn't like or 'shit shit' i.e. Big Brother).
One evening, we were going to see Ralph Fiennes to play Oedipus at the National Theatre (my verdict: unabsorbing, her verdict: magic) and the conversation turned to TV.
Me: 'Ooh, did you see Desperate Housewives yesterday?'
Her: 'Um, yes,'
Me: 'Well, Oedipus reference!!!'
'WTF?'
OK maybe those weren't our exact words but it was a few months ago now. I was referring to the episode 'We're So Happy You're So Happy'. In this episode, Lynette tries to learn more about her son, Porter, by pretending to be his age on an Internet chat website. Porter ends up falling for Lynette's online persona and sending her the love poems which Lynette had introduced Porter to. Tom, Lynette's husband and Porter's father makes the genius reference to the Ancient Greek tragedy Oedipus (if you don't know the story, click on his name), telling Lynette to quit talking to Porter online before he...
Tom: 'Kills me and blinds himself'
The inner geek in me absolutely loved this subtle reference, and was all excited about sharing this with the only other person I know who reads Greek literature and watches Desperate Housewives. Oh, no. Apparently, she does not engage in 'good shit' on an intellectual level, and now I am mocked because I do.
Even if maybe there isn't that much in Desperate Housewives to explore on a deeply profound level, I started thinking about how much people miss with entertainment. After all, we are only watching, listening or reading this stuff to be entertained and it is not the end of the world if we do not catch all the subtleties which the creators of the works probably put in to keep themselves from feeling bored.
Take The Little Prince, which I have been re-reading lately and loving the quaint story and the beautiful illustrations. This time round I am getting the vague impression of some sort of deep message about human nature, but since I'm not studying it in a work setting (which is probably the only situation when you need to analyse art) I haven't really dwelt on that at all. Like many other famous children's books, it is simply a great story, with something in there for the adults too.
Still, I think there are some things which cannot be completely successful if you do not truly understand them. I once watched a three hour long Macbeth and, having never studied it, found it the most boring three hours I have ever spent being 'entertained'. Actually, I don't even think it was Macbeth. It may have been Hamlet. It's not just old-fashioned Shakespeare which can be difficult; I found that I hated reading Philip Pullman's hugely successful His Dark Materials trilogy when it first came out and was targeted at my age group. I did actually quite like the first one, which is undeniably a good yarn. But by the time I got to the third one, the whole metaphor for atheism vs. religion (which I only found out about recently) had gone way over my head and I was bored to death. So maybe there is some importance in really understanding something to enjoy it.
Right now, I am re-reading His Dark Materials on a highly intellectual level.
Look, Pullman's novels have even been published with different covers (read about that here) for adult editions and children editions. I'm pretty sure the adult editions don't contain any risque extras, but I suppose if you're reading the book with the adult cover, you're reminding people that you are reading the book on a highly intellectual level.
One of my friends and I have an on-going joke (I'll warn you, it won't make you laugh) which came from an episode of Desperate Housewives. This friend loves culture: dance, art, theatre, books all interest her. Since I like these things too, we will go see plays together or discuss our current reads, all the while marvelling at how grown-up we sound. Sometimes my friend likes to make fun of me for not knowing who Akram Khan is, and then I'll tell her she's pretentious. I can still remember the outraged spluttering I was met with when I admitted that I found Trois Couleurs: Bleu dull.
But it works both ways. My friend also likes to watch a lot of crap TV, possibly even more crap TV than I watch - and that's saying a lot. It is when we come to the topic of TV that I will defend Desperate Housewives as witty and intelligent, whilst she assigns it to the 'good shit' category of entertainment (as opposed to 'good good' i.e. Trois Couleurs: Bleu or 'shit good' i.e. something good she didn't like or 'shit shit' i.e. Big Brother).
One evening, we were going to see Ralph Fiennes to play Oedipus at the National Theatre (my verdict: unabsorbing, her verdict: magic) and the conversation turned to TV.
Me: 'Ooh, did you see Desperate Housewives yesterday?'
Her: 'Um, yes,'
Me: 'Well, Oedipus reference!!!'
'WTF?'
OK maybe those weren't our exact words but it was a few months ago now. I was referring to the episode 'We're So Happy You're So Happy'. In this episode, Lynette tries to learn more about her son, Porter, by pretending to be his age on an Internet chat website. Porter ends up falling for Lynette's online persona and sending her the love poems which Lynette had introduced Porter to. Tom, Lynette's husband and Porter's father makes the genius reference to the Ancient Greek tragedy Oedipus (if you don't know the story, click on his name), telling Lynette to quit talking to Porter online before he...
Tom: 'Kills me and blinds himself'
The inner geek in me absolutely loved this subtle reference, and was all excited about sharing this with the only other person I know who reads Greek literature and watches Desperate Housewives. Oh, no. Apparently, she does not engage in 'good shit' on an intellectual level, and now I am mocked because I do.
Even if maybe there isn't that much in Desperate Housewives to explore on a deeply profound level, I started thinking about how much people miss with entertainment. After all, we are only watching, listening or reading this stuff to be entertained and it is not the end of the world if we do not catch all the subtleties which the creators of the works probably put in to keep themselves from feeling bored.
Take The Little Prince, which I have been re-reading lately and loving the quaint story and the beautiful illustrations. This time round I am getting the vague impression of some sort of deep message about human nature, but since I'm not studying it in a work setting (which is probably the only situation when you need to analyse art) I haven't really dwelt on that at all. Like many other famous children's books, it is simply a great story, with something in there for the adults too.
Still, I think there are some things which cannot be completely successful if you do not truly understand them. I once watched a three hour long Macbeth and, having never studied it, found it the most boring three hours I have ever spent being 'entertained'. Actually, I don't even think it was Macbeth. It may have been Hamlet. It's not just old-fashioned Shakespeare which can be difficult; I found that I hated reading Philip Pullman's hugely successful His Dark Materials trilogy when it first came out and was targeted at my age group. I did actually quite like the first one, which is undeniably a good yarn. But by the time I got to the third one, the whole metaphor for atheism vs. religion (which I only found out about recently) had gone way over my head and I was bored to death. So maybe there is some importance in really understanding something to enjoy it.
Right now, I am re-reading His Dark Materials on a highly intellectual level.
Look, Pullman's novels have even been published with different covers (read about that here) for adult editions and children editions. I'm pretty sure the adult editions don't contain any risque extras, but I suppose if you're reading the book with the adult cover, you're reminding people that you are reading the book on a highly intellectual level.Wednesday, 22 April 2009
i want moooooore
I haven't been buying very many clothes lately, and I have come to the conclusion that my wardrobe simply isn't extensive enough. Now, this would probably be a dream for plenty of people who are just itching for an excuse to buy lots of new stuff. However for me it's not like that because there isn't really anything specific which I want to buy and need an excuse for. Wait, no, let me amend that. There isn't really anything other than high-heeled evening shoes or a huge feathery, fluffy jacket which I want to buy.
The stupid starry shoes which I've been wanting for ever. I want them in silver but I'll take them in gold too.
That doesn't really help though, since my quest is based around shopping for day-to-day items, now that I've discovered that my hot pink high-waisted pleated corduroy skirt with heart shaped gold buttons isn't so cut out for casual wear. I've been shopping plenty of times, but I only ever seem to come away having spent a ridiculous amount of money on frappucinos, honey popcorn and meals at Leon. Oxford Circus makes it so easy for you to spend your money. Either that, or I come away with another beautiful, but essentially useless, bracelet.
It doesn't help either that I'm not really digging my body right now. It's stupid, I know, because everywhere I look I see plenty of people with stunning bodies wearing hideous outfits, and people of all shapes and sizes in drop-dead gorgeous fashion. Still, I don't claim to be reasonable, sensible or rational right now.
Tomorrow I am planning on going shopping. This will require some serious effort because I can think of lots of things more fun than a shopping trip right now i.e. drinking lots of tea, going for a run in the park, having a back-to-back mindless TV marathon, revising for my worryingly soon exams (OK so that last one doesn't sound like that much fun I suppose). Oh my god, who abducted the old me??? I want her back!!!
The stupid starry shoes which I've been wanting for ever. I want them in silver but I'll take them in gold too.That doesn't really help though, since my quest is based around shopping for day-to-day items, now that I've discovered that my hot pink high-waisted pleated corduroy skirt with heart shaped gold buttons isn't so cut out for casual wear. I've been shopping plenty of times, but I only ever seem to come away having spent a ridiculous amount of money on frappucinos, honey popcorn and meals at Leon. Oxford Circus makes it so easy for you to spend your money. Either that, or I come away with another beautiful, but essentially useless, bracelet.
It doesn't help either that I'm not really digging my body right now. It's stupid, I know, because everywhere I look I see plenty of people with stunning bodies wearing hideous outfits, and people of all shapes and sizes in drop-dead gorgeous fashion. Still, I don't claim to be reasonable, sensible or rational right now.
Tomorrow I am planning on going shopping. This will require some serious effort because I can think of lots of things more fun than a shopping trip right now i.e. drinking lots of tea, going for a run in the park, having a back-to-back mindless TV marathon, revising for my worryingly soon exams (OK so that last one doesn't sound like that much fun I suppose). Oh my god, who abducted the old me??? I want her back!!!
Tuesday, 21 April 2009
showing off is good for you
Sometimes I find the English love for modesty, even if it is obviously false, deeply irritating and stifling. Personally I believe that once in a while, an unembarrassed and undisguised showing off can be very good for you.
So when a couple of you asked yesterday to see a few of my homemade cards, I was more than happy to oblige. One thing I'd forgotten is that, as a self-confessed show-off, I had shown you plenty of my cards before already:
Exhibits One and Two - my favourite Happy Birthday cards
Exhibits Three, Four, Five and Six - my favourite technique
Exhibits Seven and Eight - thank-you cards
Exhibits Nine and Ten - matching card and giftwrap
Exhibit Eleven - LOVE card
Exhibit Twelve - homemade envelope
Exhibit Thirteen - a clue card
That's a lot right?
But did you really think I'd stop there? No way! I'm always up for more showing off and I don't feel bad 'cos it's the only crafty thing I've ever been able to do; pottery, sewing, jewellery, they all failed. So trust me to find the one most popular technique the hardest to master. You can find tons of information on the Internet about how to make absolutely mind-blowingly amazing pop-up cards, and when I was younger I spend a great deal of time trying to imitate them in design lessons.
And so in order to balance out my ego-show, I give you... my pop-up cards!
The top one - I made this years ago planning to sell it for Valentine's Day. Um, strange font, random heart made of tissue paper and messy glue. It's still waiting in my drawer for a Valentine who I don't think would mind.
Middle - I quite like the idea of the wrapping paper behind the pop-out. But I cannot forgive myself for that glitter application (WHEN will I learn the don't-use-glitter lesson then?) nor the fact that it took about 10 minutes to make; the guilt sets in if a card doesn't take approximately a month to complete.
Bottom - well... I don't know what I was thinking. A pop-out Eiffel tower? Made of tin foil? And oh-my-God the cover...
Oh well, laughing at yourself is good for you too.
So when a couple of you asked yesterday to see a few of my homemade cards, I was more than happy to oblige. One thing I'd forgotten is that, as a self-confessed show-off, I had shown you plenty of my cards before already:
Exhibits One and Two - my favourite Happy Birthday cards
Exhibits Three, Four, Five and Six - my favourite technique
Exhibits Seven and Eight - thank-you cards
Exhibits Nine and Ten - matching card and giftwrap
Exhibit Eleven - LOVE card
Exhibit Twelve - homemade envelope
Exhibit Thirteen - a clue card
That's a lot right?
But did you really think I'd stop there? No way! I'm always up for more showing off and I don't feel bad 'cos it's the only crafty thing I've ever been able to do; pottery, sewing, jewellery, they all failed. So trust me to find the one most popular technique the hardest to master. You can find tons of information on the Internet about how to make absolutely mind-blowingly amazing pop-up cards, and when I was younger I spend a great deal of time trying to imitate them in design lessons.
And so in order to balance out my ego-show, I give you... my pop-up cards!
The top one - I made this years ago planning to sell it for Valentine's Day. Um, strange font, random heart made of tissue paper and messy glue. It's still waiting in my drawer for a Valentine who I don't think would mind.
Middle - I quite like the idea of the wrapping paper behind the pop-out. But I cannot forgive myself for that glitter application (WHEN will I learn the don't-use-glitter lesson then?) nor the fact that it took about 10 minutes to make; the guilt sets in if a card doesn't take approximately a month to complete.
Bottom - well... I don't know what I was thinking. A pop-out Eiffel tower? Made of tin foil? And oh-my-God the cover...
Oh well, laughing at yourself is good for you too.
Monday, 20 April 2009
treasure trove
Two of the things I find most relaxing are taking a ton of photographs, and admiring the objects of the photographs. Since I also really enjoy creating cards (pretty much my only creative-in-a-practical-way outlet) my room is a treasure trove of beautiful card, ribbons, buttons and pretty much everything I can lay my hands on. I am sure I have enough things to make clothes, jewellery etc; I am very well supplied, however my skill/time really doesn't extend that far.
I don't often spend very much money on craft supplies, preferring to accumulate bits and bobs along the way. However I recently went through a bout of creating several cards which all required quite a lot of material and left my supplies sadly depleted. I bought a couple of bog standard cards to tide me over, and so you can only imagine how delighted I was when my sister presented me with a cute little present she'd got me. Two of the most unique and beautiful pieces of card I have laid my eyes upon:
Before long, you've guessed it, I was happily flicking through and snapping away at the other greatest 'jewels' in my treasure trove.
I once decided to take up sewing. I bought a sewing machine, and my friends all got together for my birthday to buy this awesome stackable sewing stuff storage unit + all the sewing accessories you'd ever need. These days, the storage finds itself home to all my spare buttons, ribbons and the thread and needles which I use on my card work.
I am not disdainful of the more cookie-cutter variety of crafts. I did not buy these but have found these cut out letters which came in a Christmas card-making pack (along with pop-out shapes and glittery, velvety and shiny card) surprisingly versatile.
I also have a big brown box which is home to all the completely random bits and bobs which find themselves becoming useful. Old jewellery, skeleton leaves, bits of ribbon, glitter, sequins and scrap material live here in glorious chaos.
Do you have any treasure troves like this at home? What do you use them for: collages, scrapbooks, or just for ogling?
I don't often spend very much money on craft supplies, preferring to accumulate bits and bobs along the way. However I recently went through a bout of creating several cards which all required quite a lot of material and left my supplies sadly depleted. I bought a couple of bog standard cards to tide me over, and so you can only imagine how delighted I was when my sister presented me with a cute little present she'd got me. Two of the most unique and beautiful pieces of card I have laid my eyes upon:
Before long, you've guessed it, I was happily flicking through and snapping away at the other greatest 'jewels' in my treasure trove.
I once decided to take up sewing. I bought a sewing machine, and my friends all got together for my birthday to buy this awesome stackable sewing stuff storage unit + all the sewing accessories you'd ever need. These days, the storage finds itself home to all my spare buttons, ribbons and the thread and needles which I use on my card work.
I am not disdainful of the more cookie-cutter variety of crafts. I did not buy these but have found these cut out letters which came in a Christmas card-making pack (along with pop-out shapes and glittery, velvety and shiny card) surprisingly versatile.
I also have a big brown box which is home to all the completely random bits and bobs which find themselves becoming useful. Old jewellery, skeleton leaves, bits of ribbon, glitter, sequins and scrap material live here in glorious chaos.Do you have any treasure troves like this at home? What do you use them for: collages, scrapbooks, or just for ogling?
Sunday, 19 April 2009
rainbow
I arrived home yesterday evening, although unsurprisingly I didn't have time to post; I was more preoccupied spending nearly an hour trying to wash salt and sulphur out of my hair (nice).
At times it was annoying not having my camera to capture more tricky things like the insanely clear and starry sky, the sweeping mountains, or pools of water filled with coins, or the Norther Lights. So you can imagine how delighted I was to have managed to take this photo of a rainbow at the bottom of a waterfall.
I find rainbows fascinating. In nature, they are so beautiful in their unnatural colour scheme. In fashion, I am yet to see a rainbow design which isn't instantly tacky.
Maybe this is something to do with the fine balance required for a rainbow. You need two constrasting weather types: sun and rain. This in itself fascinates me because it is a reminder that life is always about opposites, happiness and sadness, sun and rain, however (or perhaps therefore) it is beautiful.
There is that myth about the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. I love little stories like that, creations of the imagination which have charmed us so much that they have endured. When I was away, our tour guide told us many stories about elves and trolls and ogres and ghosts. On the final day, he said to us:
'Thank you. For many years now, fewer humans believe in these creatures. I believe that perhaps this is something to do with the advent of the electric light. But as long as someone believes, they will stay alive. So thank you for believing, and they will stay alive because of you'
Yes, I chuckled a little, but I also think that it's a sweet thought that leprechauns and elves, trolls, ghosts and ogres do exist in the most beautiful realms of nature.
At times it was annoying not having my camera to capture more tricky things like the insanely clear and starry sky, the sweeping mountains, or pools of water filled with coins, or the Norther Lights. So you can imagine how delighted I was to have managed to take this photo of a rainbow at the bottom of a waterfall.
I find rainbows fascinating. In nature, they are so beautiful in their unnatural colour scheme. In fashion, I am yet to see a rainbow design which isn't instantly tacky.
Maybe this is something to do with the fine balance required for a rainbow. You need two constrasting weather types: sun and rain. This in itself fascinates me because it is a reminder that life is always about opposites, happiness and sadness, sun and rain, however (or perhaps therefore) it is beautiful.
There is that myth about the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. I love little stories like that, creations of the imagination which have charmed us so much that they have endured. When I was away, our tour guide told us many stories about elves and trolls and ogres and ghosts. On the final day, he said to us:
'Thank you. For many years now, fewer humans believe in these creatures. I believe that perhaps this is something to do with the advent of the electric light. But as long as someone believes, they will stay alive. So thank you for believing, and they will stay alive because of you'
Yes, I chuckled a little, but I also think that it's a sweet thought that leprechauns and elves, trolls, ghosts and ogres do exist in the most beautiful realms of nature.
Thursday, 16 April 2009
'stranger than fiction'
I seem to be getting into a habit of making my post titles a little misleading. But I'm sure you appreciate that thinking up a blog title is surprisingly difficult; I should have just subscribed to the idea of making all your titles a song lyric or simply a number, but I'm way not cool enough. Anyway, although it's not that relevant, for those who haven't seen it, Stranger Than Fiction is a film about a man who starts to hear an author narrating his life in his head. The author is a woman who is suffering from writer's block and is trying to decide how to kill the protagonist of the story: the man whom we watch hearing his own life being narrated. Clear as mud? Good. Actually, I was surprised to find that I really liked the film. I suppose my strong dislike for Will Ferrell and romantic comedies was balanced out by my girl crush on Maggie Gyllenhaal (and the cool plot about writing). So, maybe you should just go see it.
ANYWAY. Last month I posted about this book I had almost bought, and then a couple of weeks ago I bought it. And then this week I started reading it, and now today I am rapidly reaching the end and I don't want it to stop!
This is definitely not Nobel Prize winning stuff, but it's charming and readable and it has an interesting context (which I wrote about in my past post). Plus, I think it deserves a prize for its wonderful ability to relax a stressed and tired me.
The thing which really surprised me about this book, and which prompted the post title 'stranger than fiction' is the way in which the character Mary seems to mirror how I feel. Yes, I am a teenage girl from London like her, but she went through teenagedom around 70 years before me. And yet she, too, goes through all the same motions and feelings that I do. To name a few: wanting to cut your hair really short, dabbling in the 'arts', falling in love with Paris... I could go on.
Now I am really sorry that these days all of my posts seem to end in the same way: with a 'now this led me to wondering if' and then a smattering of question marks and then opening the question up to the readers. It would be better if I could actually come to some sort of conclusion about my ponderings. But reading 'Mariana' really has led me to wondering: despite the difference in facts and statistics - I have never owned a country house, I do not have a dead father, nor an acting uncle and I did not grow up in the 1930s - are all our experiences of growing up fundamentally the same?
That could be quite a depressing thought to the struggling non-conformist, who wishes to soak in their angsty solitude. Maybe I shouldn't mention to them that I've felt that exact same angst too, and so have many others, and so has Mary of 'Mariana'.
PS this post was pre-scheduled (please appreciate the willpower it took not to put it up straight away!) so I apologise for not responding immediately to your philosophical and wise responses to the questions I have put forward.
ANYWAY. Last month I posted about this book I had almost bought, and then a couple of weeks ago I bought it. And then this week I started reading it, and now today I am rapidly reaching the end and I don't want it to stop!
This is definitely not Nobel Prize winning stuff, but it's charming and readable and it has an interesting context (which I wrote about in my past post). Plus, I think it deserves a prize for its wonderful ability to relax a stressed and tired me.
The thing which really surprised me about this book, and which prompted the post title 'stranger than fiction' is the way in which the character Mary seems to mirror how I feel. Yes, I am a teenage girl from London like her, but she went through teenagedom around 70 years before me. And yet she, too, goes through all the same motions and feelings that I do. To name a few: wanting to cut your hair really short, dabbling in the 'arts', falling in love with Paris... I could go on.
Now I am really sorry that these days all of my posts seem to end in the same way: with a 'now this led me to wondering if' and then a smattering of question marks and then opening the question up to the readers. It would be better if I could actually come to some sort of conclusion about my ponderings. But reading 'Mariana' really has led me to wondering: despite the difference in facts and statistics - I have never owned a country house, I do not have a dead father, nor an acting uncle and I did not grow up in the 1930s - are all our experiences of growing up fundamentally the same?
That could be quite a depressing thought to the struggling non-conformist, who wishes to soak in their angsty solitude. Maybe I shouldn't mention to them that I've felt that exact same angst too, and so have many others, and so has Mary of 'Mariana'.
PS this post was pre-scheduled (please appreciate the willpower it took not to put it up straight away!) so I apologise for not responding immediately to your philosophical and wise responses to the questions I have put forward.
Tuesday, 14 April 2009
500 currency and 5 pounds sunnies
Today I am off on an extremely exciting holiday for five days. This weekend I was bored and had very little to do in the way of procrastination so I pre-scheduled a couple of posts, but eventually I decided that some revision was probably a good idea since I was about to go on HOLIDAY!!!
So, of course, I will miss all the fabulous blogs I read but I don't think I'll be shedding too many tears (sorry). Now I'm going to love you, and leave you with this picture I took last week when I got all excited about making holiday preparations.
Here you can see my new £5 sunglasses from M&S, and the currency I bought, also from M&S. Marks & Spencers are always one of the things I miss most when abroad; I think they must be the only place where you can buy sunglasses for so cheap which won't actually somehow be detrimental to your eyesight. And they are certainly the only place you can buy the currency I needed right now, thanks to the economy.
So, of course, I will miss all the fabulous blogs I read but I don't think I'll be shedding too many tears (sorry). Now I'm going to love you, and leave you with this picture I took last week when I got all excited about making holiday preparations.
Here you can see my new £5 sunglasses from M&S, and the currency I bought, also from M&S. Marks & Spencers are always one of the things I miss most when abroad; I think they must be the only place where you can buy sunglasses for so cheap which won't actually somehow be detrimental to your eyesight. And they are certainly the only place you can buy the currency I needed right now, thanks to the economy.
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